“That moment. That instant when your fingers curl round the handles of a shiny, uncreased bag—and all the gorgeous new things inside it become yours. What’s it like? It’s like going hungry for days, then cramming your mouth full of warm buttered toast. It’s like waking up and realizing it’s the weekend. It’s like the better moments of sex. Everything else is blocked out of your mind. It’s pure, selfish pleasure.”
― Sophie Kinsella,
Why am I doing this?
When I first read Confessions of a Shopaholic, I thought it was about me, and not just because the main character is called Rebecca! I related so much to this person who was addicted to shopping in times of happiness, boredom and sadness. Some people eat a load of chocolate when they are sad, or turn to a glass of wine or two, and some absolutely mad people do a 5K run. I however, I buy things. It doesn’t really matter what it is. When I am bored/happy/sad/stressed, buying something pretty is always the answer. It doesn’t really matter what it is, some jewellery, a nice top, or a new lipstick, whatever I buy, once I’ve paid and the item is mine, I feel better. Sometimes it’ll be something really special that I have spotted on Instagram, or in a magazine, that is the latest ‘it’ thing like the Urban Decay Naked Heat palette. Once, I saw it was being released, I became obsessed. I just had to have it. I went to look at it all the time in the shop and tried some of the samples. I looked at blog posts about it online and YouTube tutorials. Then, when I was paid, I rushed out to buy it and felt so happy. I wore it every day for two weeks and when a makeup counter artist in Debenhams complimented my eye makeup I was overjoyed. But that was two months ago, and now I barely use it. It just sits in a draw and occasionally gets a look in, but not as often as I convinced myself I would use it before I bought it. Then, a few weeks or even days later, I’ll be feeling in another low/impulsive mood and buy something else that will finally make me happy, but of course it never does and the money wasting circle continues.
So yeah…I made a decision to try and cut myself off for a month from shopping. That doesn’t mean zero purchases though. If I need contact solution then obviously I’ll buy it. Rather that I’m not going to buy anything for myself simply because I want it.
So, how’s it going so far?
Well we are half way through November, and so far, I haven’t bought a thing. For the first half of the month it’s been pretty easy, mostly because I have avoided going to town at all costs so I can’t be tempted. I have however noticed that on a few occasions I have bought sweets on the way home, which is something I would never usually do. Hopefully this doesn’t mean I have swapped one vice for another, as my jeans are feeling snug enough without regular chocolate binges.
Now though, with all the Christmas stuff coming out in stores, the sparkly dresses and earrings, the glittery makeup kits, I am finding it really hard to stay strong. I don’t need anything, I just want it. Hopefully I’ll be able to stay strong and resist the urge to shop!
If anybody has any tips on how to avoid shopping, I would love to know!